Apr
6

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Seems easy ? Not for me. Right now I am crying and shivering of fear. My heart is beating hard and I feel like loosing my breath. I haven’t gone to the store for 4 years, not since that pedophile lived here. He raped the girl next door from me, she took her life. Noone have moved in there since. A student in my class were selling buiscuts to people , fortunately he was not home that day. Everytime I go to the store I must go by his house, it’s the only store near us. We don’t have a car since my father kicked us out and took our money. One day he followed after me. I screamed so my lungs started to hurt. I was told by my parents that I should scream for help. Noone came. I was only nine, but he liked that kind. Since then I started to hate my body. I wore large sized clothes and had my hair in a ponytail, sometimes unwashed just so people didn’t find me attractive, in case it would happend again.He got to jail, but he have been here for twenty years. Stil I can’t trust people, not even my teachers and near relatives. I am never in the city, I haven’t bought new clothes for months. I wear my mothers clothes, sometimes my friends. I can’t go outside without feeling safe. But I don’t wanna live that way. I don’t wanna be scared for the rest of my life. Today i am wearing a top, without sleeves. When the summer comes I am going to wear skirts and let my hair out. On thursday I am going to the mall. I wanna feel pretty again, I wanna abe confident over my body. I don’t want him to control my life, it’s him who is locked in jail, not me. I am going outside, I am going to live again.
REBLOG IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
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